I hit 70 this morning, woo hoo! I have had a slow month of losing, a couple weeks of losses of under a pound each and that was largely due to Halloween candy lying around that kept finding it's way into my mouth. I'm 4 months out now and happy to have 70 pounds gone in 4 months. Much faster than I ever imagined it would happen. I have found that this surgery is a tool and if I don't use the tool, I don't get very far. But, it is nice to be able to really focus and work hard and see results from that. A surgery of the brain would have been helpful in conjunction with the stomach one - re-wire boredom eating, emotional eating, stress eating so that food is disgusting when bored, emotional or stressed. But, onward! I am stoked to be 209.6, that's only 9.6 pounds away from my year-end goal! YAY! I think I can get it off by then, I would really love to get it off by Christmas, that's my re-vamped goal. Good Christmas gift to myself, to be under 200 pounds!
I have enjoyed getting smaller but today was a bit frustrating to find my new size 14 jeans are loose already and won't fit much longer. I love being smaller but it's hard to stay in clothes. Luckily Jody at work gave me a pair of black work pants so I didn't have to buy any of those like I had planned. I take free clothes from anyone and everyone who offers them, it's a little challenging to completely change your wardrobe every 4-6 weeks. A good problem to have, but still a problem. And I love the thrift store, it has saved me a ton of money both for me and for Steven - he is growing up as fast as I'm shrinking down. He has grown about 4 inches since school started, crazy!
I'm trying to decide what my goal weight should be. I have no clue really. I know that statistically women at my height are healthiest between 148-160 pounds. So I will aim for that range but it's hard to imagine not being too thin at that weight. I don't feel like I have another 50-60 pounds left on me to lose but it is possible I guess. My first goal is 199.9 by Christmas, then 180 by April Fool's Day, then we will see from there. Working out is going to be key to get there, I need to be more diligent with that, lately I've been a total slacker. It doesn't help I've been sick the last week or so. Gotta back to it. Onward!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
65 and countin
I like hitting the round numbers. I actually surpassed the latest round number a bit. I'm down to 214.4, that's 65.6 pounds GONE. That's 262 sticks of butter. My goal for the end of the year is 320 sticks of butter gone so I have 58 sticks to go, or 14.5 pounds, then I'll be into Onederland, under 200 pounds for the first time in my memory.
Tonight a friend didn't recognize me. Second time this week. I pretty much love that, it's so fun to know I'm really looking THAT different. It's time to get new work pants again, the last pair I got was from the thrift store and are 2 sizes too big now and LOOK IT. I hate buying dress pants so I've been avoiding it but a Thrift Store trip is in my near future.
I have been lazy on working out the past week or so. It's been stressful dealing with homework and studying with Steven among other things and instead of working out to help ease the stress, my system wants to relax and not do anything hard and feel sorry for itself. I need to snap out of it and get back to it but today is not the day THAT happened. The car broke down and a tow truck was in my evening and now worry about car repairs are in my brain. So, I drowned my stress in a biscuit with jelly. See? I needed surgery on my brain as well as my tummy cuz my instinct is still to solve stress with food. I have really been struggling the past couple of weeks with making the correct choices EVERY time and resisting emotional eating. Life has been stressful and again, I choose to add to my stress but not making good choices hence adding guilt to the equation. But, I have to just do one day at a time, cut myself some slack a bit and just keep going. I have good days where I do perfect, and utterly embarrasingly dismal days where I choose no protein and forget to drink all my water and suck down chocolate in a stressed out haze. Keeping the crap out of my house helps.
I fit in Steven's school desk today. I remember being in college and being afraid of not fitting in the chair/desks there, much less junior high chair/desk thingys. I slid right in, slid right out, no biggy. It was my NSV of the day (Non-Scale Victory) and it made me very very happy :)
Onward. I hope to update soon that I've hit 70 pounds!! Hopefully by Thanksgiving :)
Tonight a friend didn't recognize me. Second time this week. I pretty much love that, it's so fun to know I'm really looking THAT different. It's time to get new work pants again, the last pair I got was from the thrift store and are 2 sizes too big now and LOOK IT. I hate buying dress pants so I've been avoiding it but a Thrift Store trip is in my near future.
I have been lazy on working out the past week or so. It's been stressful dealing with homework and studying with Steven among other things and instead of working out to help ease the stress, my system wants to relax and not do anything hard and feel sorry for itself. I need to snap out of it and get back to it but today is not the day THAT happened. The car broke down and a tow truck was in my evening and now worry about car repairs are in my brain. So, I drowned my stress in a biscuit with jelly. See? I needed surgery on my brain as well as my tummy cuz my instinct is still to solve stress with food. I have really been struggling the past couple of weeks with making the correct choices EVERY time and resisting emotional eating. Life has been stressful and again, I choose to add to my stress but not making good choices hence adding guilt to the equation. But, I have to just do one day at a time, cut myself some slack a bit and just keep going. I have good days where I do perfect, and utterly embarrasingly dismal days where I choose no protein and forget to drink all my water and suck down chocolate in a stressed out haze. Keeping the crap out of my house helps.
I fit in Steven's school desk today. I remember being in college and being afraid of not fitting in the chair/desks there, much less junior high chair/desk thingys. I slid right in, slid right out, no biggy. It was my NSV of the day (Non-Scale Victory) and it made me very very happy :)
Onward. I hope to update soon that I've hit 70 pounds!! Hopefully by Thanksgiving :)
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